Day 2

so i have found a few changes in kathryn since the surgery... her voice seems higher pitched...you can tell this especially when she gets upset it just gets higher... i don't remember her doing this before. and she is slurring her words really bad now. simple sounds like "b" and "d" get slurred together and you can tell what she is saying! it sounds like complete jibberish! and she gets frustrated cuz i keep asking her to say it again i didn't hear her clearly, and i'm frustrated cuz i don't know what she's asking me for...::deep breaths:: it was quite the battle today. she would mumble "i wa sa mi muy" HUH? or "dao eh beh mi" i don't remember the rest of them but the first was supposed to be "i want chocolate milk mommy" and the second was "daniel is being mean" or something like that...all day it was like this. like it hurt to annunciate her words... but i would ask her to say it after me the right way...and she would say it better... idk. i'm sure it's just temporary, but it took all i had to stay calm and not scream "ughhhhh".

other than that, she is doing well, she went to sleep at 9:15 last night and woke up at 6:50 not complaining of pain... but i gave her medicine anyway. i thought she would wake up through the night... well, she had mac n cheese for lunch and rice and cheese and broccoli casserole...never complained that it hurt. i asked the doc and he said if she wants it, let her try it. but nothing that has sharp edges...noodles and rice are ok... she must have drank, oh, 4 cups (10 oz each) of chocolate milk and 2 cups of juice...that girl never drinks that much...i guess cuz i limit her milk and juice so she will eat food... she was so hydrated her pee was practically clear. so that's good.

i gave her pain meds around 7am and wanted to wait til she seemed like she needed them again, and that time was at 4. she wasn't fussing, but she said she hurt. i was debating on giving her another dose of pain meds before she went to bed, but she fell asleep just after 8 which was just at 4 hours so i figured i'd wake her up when i go to bed to give her some more...man am i sorry i did that! she woke up at 10 shaking and crying holding her hands over her mouth her throat hurt so much! i felt so terrible. she barely could swallow the medicine she was so upset. but i gave her some water to sip and rocked her back to sleep. she's sleeping in my room again so i can hear her if she needs help. tomorrow, if she makes it through the night, i am giving her pain meds and every 4 hours continuing. better for her to be dizzy and sleepy than in pain!

daniel could tell something was wrong. he kept wanting to lay right next to kathryn all day, and when she started crying tonight and i gave her some water i put it on a little table while i rocked her...he came and brought her zizzy and bumblebee, and a blanket and held the cup of water up to her mouth with the straw so she could sip. what a sweet boy. i just love them both so much. they both can be so loving to each other. i hope that lasts. it sure brings tears to my eyes to see the love they show one another.

i convinced kathryn to share the blanket with daniel that all he wanted to do was get underneath it to be next to her. she wasn't in a playful mood
but daniel was not giving up... about an hour later he curled up to her again.
and kathryn loves dora now...lol. they were glued to those shows and still sitting right next to each other. too cute!

this was after kathryn fell asleep around 8:30, daniel was laying on her watching the show "iron giant" which was a really good show btw!

but i pulled them away from the tv for a little while when kathryn was in a good mood (afternoon-ish) and we played hide-and-seek (we hide a certain toy the other goes to find it) i chased her around the house and tickled her good, we read books and made "play" food, and i took down some new puzzles for them to put together but after about an hour and a half, she was saying she was tired and wanted to just lay down and watch movies again. lol. i tried.

john was super sweet to me before he went to work...we got some time to cuddle and he scratched/rubbed my back...it always feels nice to be pampered... he didn't want me to go (check on the kids cuz that all mom's think about!) and kathryn ended up coming in a few mins after i said i needed to check on them it had been 30 mins since i'd come to cuddle... and kathryn was fine she was saying she pressed play on the movie again. lol. so we got some more time and we talked...then i was trying to leave again, and we got in a tickle fight! we haven't done that in ages! oh, we used to do that all the time when we were dating...then it just stopped once we got married... we used to get bruises from them, but non stop laughter and joking throughout...it is just good fun. i must admit that 100% focused attention on me was really nice. even when the kids came in he still held me tight and looked into my eyes while he talked daniel into giving kathryn her blanket... i miss that from him. it's too bad we let life get in the way of finding the time to be in love again. like when we were dating. the cute infatuation... compliments left and right... constant embraces and never wanting to let go. i'll just have to remember how it used to be. i revlove around my kids lives and their needs and i forget to make a revolution around my husband ever now and then...

i'll end with this quote i found in my planner (franklin covey):

"Whenever you are asked if you can do a job tell them "certainly, i can!" then get busy and find out how to do it" Theodore Roosevelt