well, working at Frito Lay has it's ups and downs... and that has taken up a good bit of my time in the 2 months i've worked there. It's a great job, the only drawback is having to work on sunday. i think they are fixing that (they just hired 4 new people) by having later shifts on sunday, that way i can still go to church. we shall see. i really miss going to church and having that constant spirit as a guide. i have noticed a change in my thoughts, and actions since i haven't been to church in 7 weeks. it suddenly becomes harder and harder to do the things that nourish the spirit like reading scriptures, praying frequently, FHE, etc. but i noticed, and now i am working to correct the problem... focusing on what is important, being more Christ like, remembering my family, and being pure.
today was a good day for me, it was a day that i decided i would work on cleansing the bad, and keeping focused. unfortunately i didn't get to go to church, but i the Lord heard my prayers. i was feeling friendly today and got to have a few conversations with some of the co-workers... Kevin is one guy i got to chat with. he's so nice. always says hi to me, asks me how i'm doing today, and has a unique taste in music...he introduced me to the "neon trees" a few days ago, and i just recently really got into their song "animal" and i mentioned that i had the song stuck in my head and that i really liked it! he mentioned that he had a dashboard confessional song stuck in his head at the moment... WHAT?!?! you listen to DASHBOARD! hahaha. only my all time favorite band! that is GREAT! who else has even heard of them? not many people. so that was cool to find out he was a fan of them like i was. that made me happy knowing that i wasn't alone in loving Dashboard. maybe i was too distracted, cuz i loaded a truck wrong after that, and had to go back and reload the whole thing! ugh!! it's always this one truck that is annoying to load, and i usually try to avoid filling the order for it, but today, that didn't happen. oh well, all that frustration did me good on my next and last order for the day...i sped through it! singing along to dashboard confessional on my ipod all along. i got to leave early (a 7 hr day vs a 12 hr day) and went to the store to get some groceries, and even struck up a conversation with the cashier at the store! haha.
but by far the biggest thing that made my day was selling my friend Amanda's cuddlebag! it has been sitting in our living room waiting to be sold for the longest time now, and i finally brought the price down on it and someone scooped it up in less than a day! woohoo! now my living room looks so much bigger! and now Amanda is that much closer to being able to afford to come get her stuff!
so i get home and the kitchen is a mess, dinner needs to be made, and John wants to spend the rest of the day playing video games now that i am home...haha. its great how he feels that way. that he can "check out" for the day. sigh. so i start the dishes a washin while i make some zucchini and mushroom spaghetti (still have the zucchini's from the garden to eat!) and even though negative thoughts are going through my mind (i tend to take a subject and "talk it through" in my head, i.e. have a made up conversation with someone that never actually took place) and so i "told john how i felt" about his attitude,(conversation in my head) and even with my snappy comments that were a "in your face" type response, i still had a good laugh about it all, knowing that i never actually talked to john about this issue. :::sigh::: i'm not going to let that ruin my day! i made a yummy meal, the kitchen started to get clean, and i feel like i did a heck of a lot today!
so i got to look back on this day in history, and June 13, 2004 was when my dad passed away. it's crazy to think it's been 6 years since i haven't had the privilege to hear his voice and his "goWAH"s at all crazy things i'd tell him... i miss him. he was a great man with a lot of spunk and he had many talents. i think i am of his blood for sure with how my interests are similar to his! every time i walk in my room i see the amazing furniture he built, and every time i build something i will think of him. with every picture i take i think of how much he loved capturing every memory in a picture. i wish i could see his reaction to my kids, my life. cuz i know he can see me and my family and my choices and my life. i'm sure he walks with me. when he first passed, i remember thinking about every choice i made, and that he was watching, and how i didn't want him to be disappointed. he was on my mind a lot, and i suddenly realized how Heavenly Father sees all our thoughts/actions. i sure did screw up since then, but i hope i can fix any future blunders so i can see him and walk with him again. i sure miss you Dad. i wish i had more time to learn so much more from you. but alas. i'm glad i got the 17 years i did get. (pause) wow that made me quite emotional. a flood of memories, and a gush of tears.
on to something less emotional. my garden. i've been meaning to post an update... i offically hate trying to garden in Louisiana. HAHA! key word is trying. i love gardening, but hate all the bugs that have since destroyed my plants...my zucchini was the first to go thanks to the squash vine borer, and then it was my broccoli and cauliflower thanks to the cabbage looper worm and another silvery caterpillar...never got to see the florets =(. now i think something is attacking my cucumber and honeydew plants, and i suspect the squash vine borer is the cause. my pea plants started dying off for no good reason, im not sure what the problem was there, but my bean plants have yet to produce anything, i suspect it's because of the bird population that hangs out in our yard...then there is the ants that attack the okra, and the beetles on my bell peppers...and it must have a bacterial problem cuz black moldy spots are popping up on peppers growing on the plants. but i have gotten to harvest 2 bell peppers and use them in my crawfish fettucinne last week. unfortunately my lettuce bolted as soon as the temperatures reached above 85... it became bitter and started growing as stalk to produce seed. my corn is doing well, although i only got about 2 ears per plant...i haven't taken them off yet. on the good side, my cherry tomato plants surprised the heck out of me with how big and bushy the got! i'm gonna have hundreds of tomatoes! they have started turning red so i am getting to enjoy that. i have a sunflower that made it's head and now it's full of seeds so much that it droops over! so i'll have lots of extra space in my garden for heat loving plants... and i'm thinking about doing lots of corn! and probably more sunflowers. things bugs can't seem t o harm. now i can't wait for fall/winter when the bugs are gone! haha.
well, last but not least, my weight!!
when i started on April 14 i weighed 143.
it is June 13th and last i weighed myself it said:
i just couldnt believe it! never in my wildest dreams did i ever think i would be below 130 after having 2 kids! it's craziness, and i am still loosing weight ever day i work! that is how strenuous it is! haha. but i am so glad for that cuz i feel great. i am glad that i get a work out at the same time i am getting paid. it really has toned a lot of areas! my arms are the most noticable! i've gained some muscle back in them!
WOOHOO! i can do things at work that guys think i can't do. that's just how i am. i hate feeling weak. so i'm glad i took the job.an update on the kids:
kathryn is a constant talker now, and half the time i can understand her. i hope she grows out of the speech thing. she is getting smart. she always remembers to say prayers before we eat and go to sleep. she wants to help do everything now. one day i told her i had to go to work and she said "oh, well i will come and help you!" haha. she already knows how to work my iphone and play her little games on it. she knows when she is tired, and will put herself to sleep now. its great not having to fight with her (most of the time) she however has learned this annoying thing i have termed "flip flopping". i haven't seen any other kids do this, but maybe its a phase...she gets in these grumpy moods and suddenly nothing can make her happy. "i'm hungry!" i made a PBnJ for you "i'm not hungry!" ok, fine. "but i hungry mommy!!" then go eat your sandwhich! "but i not hungry!!!" and back and forth she goes until i finally just have enough...she does this with everything, what movies she wants to watch, what game she wants to play, puzzles, if she is tired, if she is thirsty, going outside, etc, etc. it is beyond me how to break her of this. and when i finally draw the line and say that was your final answer, you lost your chance to blah blah... she throws a tantrum. yeah, time out for her. but it doesn't change anything. ::sigh::
sadly enough, daniel knows how to work my iphone too! haha. he posted a comment on facebook the other day and i didn't even realize it! when he is done eating now, he announces it to everyone "all da" and he loves the suspense of movies...always saying "OHHH NOO" over and over at the appropriate times. haha. his motor skills are simply amazing! he jumps off the arm of the couch and straight onto the floor now...no more cuddle bag. he swims all by himself now, with arm floaties of course. he can jump off the side of the pool into the pool with no problem, and kathryn still is afraid to do this. he is very organized with what he wants to be...haha. he plays with his cars like he sees in the movie, and eats like a 6 yr old! haha. he loves stacking blocks and playing rough with his sister! kathryn hates that. haha. he even bullies on his almost 6 yr old nephew Zeke! he holds his own with the older kids...
